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Who watches the Watchmen?

Unless you have been living under pop-culture rock (I hear rent is cheap), you know that WATCHMEN came out on Friday.  Comic nerds (ie-me) have been waiting for this movie to come out and the general population was...well...I think they were just fucking curious.  As previously noted...i was fucking skeptical.  Saturday night I saw this movie.  My doubts were wrong.  Although the movie is not without its flaws, it was fucking awesome.  So from here on out are spoilers.  You've been warned.

Awesomeness...

-Dr. Manhattan, the Comedian, Rorshach were PERFECTLY cast. Dr. Manhattan is a total sentient being, the Comedian is a guy who kills pregnant ladies and somehow you symathize with him, and Rorshach...well he was just fucking awesome. Fuck it, I'll just go ahead and say all of them were perfectly cast.  Except for a few moments which we will get to in a bit.

-The entire opening scene.  You get the sense of the minutemen, where pop culture is, and how these heroes are viewed in society.  Im' stoked for the DVD to try catching all the little freeze frame moments that surely exist.  All to Bob Dylan.

-it stayed remarkably close to the comic.  Almost to a fault.  They really did put as much of the comic into the movie as they could.  Even the dead dog which I thought would surely get cut.

-Fight Scenes.  This shit isnt spiderman.  Bones going through street-thugs skin.  Broken necks.Bullets breaking glasses.  It was fucking awesome.

-Malin Ackerman.  She deserves her own section because I would do horrible things to her.

-They did not dumb it down.  This was my big fear.  Would they dumb it down to draw in a bigger audience?  Hell.   No.  All the same messages are still here.  And they are all fucking awesome.  

NON-Awesomeness

-the soundtrack.  Aside from Bob Dylan and MyChem, it seems like they were trying to decide on the most cliche song to put in the scenes.  "Hello darkness my old friend" during a funeral.  Seriously.

-The mars scene.  When Silk Spectre and Manhattan are on mars, its supposed to be an intense, heartfelt plea to him.  Please, Save human life.  Instead, it just seems like she tell him "oh, well fuck off is you don't want to save the world."

-The ending.  OK, So I totally understand why they couldnt do the giant squid.  I get that.  But I think they could have done something even better.  It just doesnt make sense to me...I know New York was attacked as well, but why would the russians have any issues with what happened if it were americas own weapon?  isnt that kind of just a "wow, sucks for you" scenario?

-Ozymandis should have been a truly arrogant son of a bitch.

-No newspaper vendor/kid reading at hydrant except for a brief cameo.  Hopefully this is fixed with the extended dvd.

DID NOT BUG ME

-blue man junk (of you were a god you wouldnt wear pants either.)

-NITE OWL kind of looking like he could never win a fight.  If anything, it made it more interesting

I could pick apart this movie for hours, but the bottom line is, GO SEE IT!  The non awesomeness is so minimal...it doesnt even really matter.

9/10 Stars

I need some sleep now, heres the shuffle...

10-Hellogoodbye-Homewrecker

9-Alkaline trio-Loust and rendered (Acoustic)

8-Gym Class Heroes - Need a place to run

7-Say ANything-The Futile

6-Descendents-Rotting out

5-Weakerthans-PAst Due

4-Andrew WK-I love NYC

3-The Movielife-Hey (XFM Radio Session)

2-The Cure-One more time

1-Less Than Jake-Awkward Age

Goodnight

I've decided the best is yet to come.  Or the worst.  Not sure which is first...

Nothing out there will light this night more

10-The Used-Yesterdays Feelings

9-Silverstein-November

8-Death Cab For Cutie-Amputations

7-A Wilhelm Scream-Speed of Dark

6-Monty Are I-In this Legacy

5-This is Hell-Procession Commence

4-Bane-Swan Song

3-Blink 182-Toast and Bananas

2-Circa Survive-Holding someones hair back

1-You, Me, And Everyone we know-The Press War

it is now 6 am and I am still up

Seriously, if my sleep schedule were more fucked up, people would think I'm even more nuts. Well fuckbeans. I haven't seen Watchmen yet, and I am really fucking hoping it's awesome. I have a superwayintense project to do for form and space and a few math assignments. I need to fucking finish this Bas-relief by tuesday. It's due on thursday, but fuck that noise, I'll be tasting chaos on thursday. My guess....it tastes like pudding. Look up Bas Relief in google images, I am doing it on a piece by an amazing artist Tara Mcphearson. Here is the piece

Its loking like it will be about 8 layers.  But factor in any bristol board and layers I probably missed and well...Its more than 8 layers.

Toda...yeste....the shuffle thats on now...

10-Bob Dylan-Hurricane

9-Kaddisfly-Buy our intention, We'll buy you a unicorn

8-Naked Raygun-I dont know (live)

7-Hellogoodbye-Two Weeks in Hawaii

6-allister-Jimmy's Dreamgirl

5-Green Day-Welcome To paradise

4-Fear Before the March of flames-Absolutely Fabulous and me

3-Alkaline Trio-Into the night (Acoustic)

2-Getup Kids-Close To home

1-United Nations-Subliminal Testing

Ben Folds

This is honestly one of the coolest things I've seen all day.   

http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1709545

Moustaction March

Last night I fall asleep.  Tummy is slightly upset but ok, I can deal.  4am comes around and I fall into mid sleep and am freezing and sweating at the same time.  Then I stumble, I trip, and violently throw up into my toilet. this continued for the next 2 hours.  Then I fall asleep and do it all over again an hour later.  Fuck my life.  I still feel pretty shitty.  I didn't go to class today and luckily found someone to take my shift.  The thought of food makes me more sick but holy crap I am hungry.  

On a more pleasant note.  Moustaction March is in full swing. 

the action so far...

the shuffle

10-Hot Rod Circuit-the Pharmacist (best song they ever wrote)

9-The Rocket Summer-This is Me

8-Autopilot Off-Byron Black

7-Taking Back Sunday-Summer Stars

6-Saves the Day-Houses And Billboards

5-My Chemical Romance/The Used-Under Pressure (queen/David bowie Cover)

4-Mxpx-Sorry So Sorry

3-A New Found Glory-My Solution

2-Midtown-Resting Sound

1-Holy Roman Empire-Undeserving You

So whats the point?

everytime we talk i secretly wish I could hate you and everytime I look I wish I was someone else.  Finally the needle is consoling, if you only knew how this felt.

10-Jawbreaker-Basilica

9-Rufio-Walk dont Run

8-Hot Water Music-Scraping

7-AFI-Red Hat

6-Fear Before the March of Flames-Law of Averages

5-Rise Against-Kotov Syndrome

4-Midtown-The Easy Way Out

3-Bouncing Souls-Less Than Free

2-Saves the day-She

1-Autopilot Off-Divine Intervention

The Weather Channel Reruns

For those not in the know, I live on the 8th floor. And I totally think my apartment is pretty bitchin. Only I can never really tell what the weather is like because heat rises and its always 80 degrees in here with the window open. I wake up today to say to myself, "Hm...It's really fucking white outside." Oh, hello massive blizzard. So I check out Weather.com to see whats going on. At 8.30 am it said light flurries lasting until 7:30 am. Sooo...I call bullshit. But today was busy. I was the model employee as always and sold a shitton of what the man wants me to while being humiliated and treated like a child. I really want to become a punk rock gypsy and travel in a shitty van and have antics. ah well. Thank god for tuition reimbursment. Just keep putting up with it and il get by...i hope.
Anyway, heres the 10 shuffle songs. I also listened to Four Year strong today because the album is fucking flawless.  They currently have the most plays in my ipod.  Stoked for TOC tour.

10-Brand New-No seatbelt Song

9-Less Than Jake-Greased Lightning (Grease Cover)

8-The Used-Greener With The Scenery

7-Green Day-We Are Waiting

6-Jawbreaker-Shirt

5-Senses Fail-Institutionalized (Suicidal Tendencies Cover)

4-Over It-Chef Yan

3-Crime In Stereo-Animal Pharm

2-Spitalfield-Kill the Drama

1-Jets To Brazil-Chinatown

This is for you

you know what you need to do...

best foods ever?

Just say it...count chocula has nothing on these two. anyone that can find a box of either of these for me i will love you forever.

Shuffleuffugus
10-Noise Ratchet-Permanent Solution
9-The Bled-Get up you Son Of a Bitch, Cuz Mickey Loves Ya
8-A newfound Glory-Eyesore
7-Say Anything-Total Revenge
6-Operation Ivy-Unity
5-Bad Religion-Honest Goodbye
4-Minor Threat-Think Again
3-Andrew WK-I love NYC
2-H2O-Phone Song
1-Descendents-Talking

#56

Lately I've been feeling like a grumpy, jaded old man when it comes to music.  I cant get into alot of stuff that getting way super popular nowadays.  Hell, most if it is just fucking unlistenable.  But, for the most part, I can back some of it.  I wont pay to see them live, but to each his own...right?

Yea...I thought so too until I saw this bullshit.  Taylor Swift...I can totally give her number one.  I don't like it, it's just not my thing.  I knew she would get it.  I'm more worried about #56.  Thursday.  Ok seriously people, fuck you.  This band gets on stage EVERY fucking night and literally bleeds onstage, and all you can give them is #56.  The CD was 8 Dollars!  Thats less than a drink!  They switched over to epitaph so sure they saw less radio/advertising but fuckin A.  You kids can wear purple Forever the sickest kids and metro station shirts for 20$, but a band that has worked their ass off and left everything on stage gets behind nickleback.  It wasnt even their first week!  Fuck The Maine, fuck 3oh3, fuck autotune, fuck metro station, fuck brokencyde, and fuck jstar.  Brokencyde are dumb fucks and encourage rape and drinking in clubs when the dumb fucks aren't even old enough to get in.  And you kids eat it up.  How they ever sold out a tour i'll never know.  Actually, I do.  The venues were the size of my place.  That many people couldnt possibly be dumb enough to fall for their bullshit.  Just fucking give back to a band that gives all.  Heres the video, spread it around if you like it.  

VIVA LA RESISTANCE!

Resuscitation Of A Dead Man

I forgot to mention, the other screamy voice is Tim from Rise Against.

Today on ipod Shuffle....

10-Fenix TX-Manufactured Inspirato

9-Strike Anywhere-Chalk Line (Acoustic)

8-Allister-Waiting

7-Alkaline Trio-Tuck Me In

6-Pennywise-Still Can Be Great

5-Stretch Armstrong-Busted (Sick of it All Cover)

4-Hush Sound-You Are The Moon

3-The Matches-Audio Blood

2-Goldfinger-Im Down

1-Bane-What Keeps us Here

And if NFG doesnt place at least number 20 in march im personally coming to to your door and kick you in the bajingo/schwingschwong

A Cheery post for once? I was shocked too...

So the birthday...well...for lack of a better word...blew.  Although I did go out adventuring with Kim the day before.  Holy splurge.  I bought things I definitely do not need, but I'm stoked on the regardless.  New Video Game (Skate 2), Some awesome albums (Thursday, CIV, A Newfound Glory, Bob Dylan), a new backpack, and a massive comic book, which I will get into now.

  Any self-respecting comic book nerd knows Watchmen.  They know it well.  Its the ONLY Graphic novel to ever make the NY Times 100 Best novels of all time list.  And it deserves it.  With that said, I am slightly nervous about the

 movie.  I read online that they changed the ending and we all know that the "visionary" director loves his slow-mo.  So I will definitely be seeing thins in Imax when it is released, but with crossed arms.  Anyway, to brush up and get ready for the movie, I knew I needed to pick up a new copy of the book.  I havent read it in a while, so I definitely need to.  Kim gave me a 40% off coupon for borders, and I knew I would buy it.  Sure enough, right in the middle is a display showing every version of the book imaginable.  I picked up this...

Normally, this thing goes for 75$.  Massive and hardcover and friggen awesome.  Basically, it is the DEFINITIVE version of the comic.  Buy this, and you will never need another version.  I paid 40$.  I am stoked on that price.  And I am stoked to read it again.  It will look awesome next to Calvin & Hobbes.

I may be getting older, but on my birthday I ate pizza, read comics, and played video games.  I asked my mom if she's absolutely sure I am not 12.

So thank you to Everyone who wished me happy birthday.  It really does mean alot.  To those that forgot (Chiara)...you are so beeflisted.

10 songs that came up on shuffle while typing this.

Smashing Pumpkins-Today

Kanye West-Gold Digger

Joy Division-Love Will Tear Us Apart

Homegrown-Tomorrow

Less Than Jake-a.s.a.o.k

Scary Kids Scaring Kids-Th bright Side of Suffering

The Academy is...-Checkmarks

Dashboard Confessional-Carve your Heart

Bouncing Souls-Holiday Cocktail Lounge

Hot Water Music-Remedy

Last week I bought the entire Back to the future trilogy.  I then watched it about 6 times.  Honestly, the entire thing is sooo much better than I remember.  You can try and pinpoint exactly what is wrong with it, but then you'd just be an asshole.  Stop trying to destroy my childhood!

Anyway, I couldnt spend valentines day with the girl I wanted to, so Back to the future and Call of Duty Slayings are an ok second option I suppose!

My birthday is Sunday.  Fuck.

Audrey Kawasaki

You might be able to see right through me, but you have no idea the capacity my heart actually runs.

Current list of things to steal, er...buy.

Wood sheets (to paint on)

The Fray's first album

Better brushes

buttons

sticker paper

Back to the future on DVD

callofduty world at war

There is really only so much a person can take before they freak out and ask what the fuck is going on? Why dont you just look at everything thats happened and admit its fate?  

School gets very disheartening at times.  I looked at my degree audit today.  It feels like if i stay part time I will never get the fuck out.  Thank god I was able to test out of some basic classes.  Next quarter I will be taking Math Fundamentals 2 and Computers for the Arts.  Math is...math...but it will be good because I have never used photoshop or illustrator.  So expect me to be way confused and have a ton of posts saying FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

Bloc Party, Death Cab For Cutie, NFG w/bayside, SYG & shai hulud, Hardcore fest @ metro, Butch Walker, Jimmy Eat World, and FOB w/alltimelow, heymonday, cobra starship, and Thursday w/FYS &cancer bats all have amazing shows coming to CHI.  get me in il love you forever.

Real Life isn't nearly as great as in the movies.

Yesterday I saw this


To say I was incredibly excited for it is a vast understatement. And holy hell it did not disappoint. Real life is really not as awesome as in this movie, in either universe. I don't want to ruin it for anyone, but I will say it has potential to break into my top 5 movies ever list. I actually laughed at myself because my I could feel my heart racing at certain points. My only gripe is that I have been putting buttons on eyes for years. But I suppose I can exist in a world with more buttons. Hollywood will always produce crap, but recently they have been doing some things right. Oh, and If I don't win those Nikes someone is going down.

I also currently have 9$ to my name. But I am totally ok with this because I don't have to write a rent check until APRIL. OH YES mother fuckers. And it was tax return money. So I am severely excited about this. Maybe now I can get slightly ahead. On real people things...bills, school, supplies, digital camera, ps3....who knows!

If anyone has a decent idea on what the fuck to do for my birthday please let me know. So far I have...buy a digital camera and try to get alchohol poisoning. haha.

Isolation Row

My Chemical Romance - Desolation Row


There are so man awesome things about this video I can't begin to make a list. Mostly because I dont want to.

This one isnt very cryptic. Although most of my other ones arent very.

birfday soon....ugh

So my birthday is coming soon. So I am going to make something awesome to pass the time. A Birthday List!!!!

Note...I expect to get none of this...I just really like making lists.

Back to the Kitchen

Call of Duty 5

Gremlins 1&2

Coraline Dunks

Amanda Visell Pink Elephant

Oh and this made my month basically...

I am still really not looking forward to my birthday.

Baby, We Are Meant to Be Alone

Some people are meant to be alone. Some are meant to be alone together. I fall into the latter and I know you do too.

Let the confusion continue

Holy lack of updates! Here is a (very) Brief update of going ons

-School started. Honestly, the only class I actually give a fuck about is Form & Space. Currently, I am hot glueing 1000's (yes thousands) of matchsticks together to form a 3d word "vandal". I swear it makes sense but I keep running out of glue sticks.

-Work is still annoying. I think I am pretty much on a quest to see how many people I can piss off. Personally, I think the shit is hilarious. The Thursday/FYS signing should be pretty awesome though.

-Jess flew in from Long Island to visit for a few days. Her ass woke me up most days at 7am and I nearly killed her. I always forget about the way touristy things to do here until someone visits.

-I did my taxes and am able to pay 2 months rent. Thats right, suck it.

-Hockey games in general are still as awesome as I remember. Drunken people watching people hit each other...how can you go wrong? honestly.

-Yes, If you burn your hand on the stove you get the fuck away from the stove. But sometimes you burn your tongue on pizza. You dont swear off pizza if you know it can be good. This only sorta explains what the fuck is going through my head. My everything hurts.

Awesome/Intimidating

I have the biggest double edge sword on earth.  On the one hand, I always love lurking out artists and seeing what they are up to. It inspires me and makes me want to become better and do what they do for a living. 

  On the other hand, shit like this is fucking terrifying.

How the fuck am i supposed to compete with that?

I'm still trying to develop my own style. Still working on ways to create characters. It's not really working, but thats bsides the point. I think I'm going to start buying sticker paper and making my mark around the city.

"Just tryin to get a motha fuckin scholorship"

  So school finally started.  It's still a weird experience.  Being in a massive hallway with people I know or have seen before.   Sitting down and paying attention to the lady giving out math quizzes is still damn near impossible.  And honestly, it's pretty fucking awesome to have a place to go and not have it be work.  

  It hasn't exactly been easy though.  Every day I keep getting bounced between my admissions advisor and financial aid.  I keep having to yell at said advisor (despite her trying to be helpful) but she never friggen listens.  Then when I go over to my financial aid advisor (who is super awesome) she gives me the consolation sigh, checks my shit, and says "Yea, she needs to stay out of this.  Her part is done."

  But in some fucking awesome news, I decided to have a meeting with some higher ups yesterday.  I met with an awesome lady named Alyson.  I showed her my sketchbook and portfolio.  She asked me about triad and complimentary colors.  She asked me about rubber cement and xacto knives.  And amazingly, I pulled every answer out of my ass.  I was able to show her examples of perspective in my work.  Color theory and design.  I actually got her to say damn.  And after it was all said and done, she did something that, she says, almost never happens.  I advanced out of Design, Color Theory, and Observational Drawing.  Which means I come way closer to my hopeful graduation date even with only being part time right now.  

  She then introduced me to alot of higher up people.  Looks like a good enough start.  Hell, since i advanced out of those classes I'm rolling with a 4.0.  so for futute reference, I wanna work at Hurley or paulfrank or a variety of other places.  Haha.

  Blackhawks game on Friday with Alli.  Im super stoked about this.  I haven't been to a hockey game since the Whalers were still a team.  Then early as fuck the next morning I pick up Jess from the airport.  Holy schedule.

oh yes, spiderman loves obama

In other news...I still can't stand Brokencyde, J starr (sp?), Millionaires, 3O3, or most other shit that came into action past 2002.  Gallows is the exception to this.  I just cant have dance parties.  I have "mosh your face" parties.

Passed out at work

Why is it that everyone is supposed to go to high school ,then college, then get a grown up job...yet it is fucking impossible to find money when you DO want to go to school?  Yesterday I went to my financial aid advisor to find out that I can only attend class part time and pay 110$ out of pocket a month.  so heres how my monthly bills will round out....

655-rent

110-school

50-cell

30(?)-comed

3145994820-art supplies.

Shit is expensive.  So today while at work I started rambling off....everything.  I started talking really fast like I do when I'm back home.  Then, even faster.  Then I started to get shortened breath.  Then, fell down.  I came to and people gave me water and sent me home.  Apparently trying to better yourself isn't fucking easy.  I know so many people that take college for granted.  "Oh, my mom is making me go."

  Well chances are your mom is also paying for your shit so stop fucking whining.  How bout your dad co-signs for me so I can go to school and not have to worry about if it will make my ass homeless.

I just dont fucking get it.  But I'm also sick of these stupid fucking jobs that I dread going to every day.  This is the only way out I guess.

Glad I stumbled across this.

  Internet lurking can sometimes make you feel better.  This is an excerpt from an interview done with Alex Pardee from Juxtapoz Magazine.  He's a fucking amazing artist and you have probably seen his stuff with Hurley or The Used.

"It’s no secret that Alex has suffered from “severe emotional and psychological issues,” and was placed on strong antipsychotic medication at the tender age of 14 to help combat his ‘sickness’ (which we’re more apt to label an intense outpouring of creativity, but hell we’re not doctors.) Alex was even placed in a mental hospital for a period of time as a teen, where he “felt completely out of place.”

As we talk about the difference between illness and intelligence, and it’s hard not to be struck by the artist’s obvious humble acceptance of his adolescence and the coinciding challenges that many others would probably have allowed to consume them with anger, fear, insecurity, and confusion. We’re not saying the average individual doesn’t go through bouts of these emotions; however, Alex has been able to parlay his unique past into a sort of therapy, allowing his artwork and projects to serve as a cathartic release. “I’m happy most of the time now,” he says. “I still get upset about stuff, but I think that’s normal. Healthy people aren’t happy all the time. I’ve been doing this for so long, I don’t know what I’d be like if I wasn’t painting and working so much. It’s just what I do.”

Looking at his newest works, it’s plain to see that Alex’s passion has taken yet another turn towards greatness. More thematically unified than previous shows, Letters From Digested Children will offer viewers an invitation into a complete world created by the artist. “I always loved Disneyland because it was like an entire experience from start to finish. Like, Space Mountain didn’t just begin when you got on the ride, it began when you got in line.” Similarly, Alex has an entire artistic ride planned for the top level of FIFTY24SF Gallery (complete with monster cookies…yum.) Strap on those artsy seatbelts, kids."

At the very least it makes mee feel like this desolation and heartbreak isn't for nothing.  Maybe I can get a few good pieces out of it.

True Romance is Dead, I shot it in the chest and in the head.

  To a certain degree, every single person believes that everything happens for a reason.  Granted, people have different names for it.  Sometimes it's God.  Sometimes it's Fate.  But no one believes that you just kind of float along hoping things happen.  

  Personally, I know everything happens for a reason.  But only to a point.  If you sit on the bus and a cute girl/guy sits next to you, it's up to you to find a way to talk to them.  If your band finally gets booked to play the Metro, it's up to you to promote the fuck out of your show so more people come.  When you get those school scholarships it's up to you to decide WHICH school to go to.  

  Fate can introduce you to the girl of your dreams.  The only girl you can ever connect with.  Or be truly honest with.  You can become best friends.  Tell each other things you would never tell another soul and not have to follow up with "So help me if you ever tell anyone this I will be forces to kill you."  You can have the greatest times of your life doing the simplest things like lying down late at night waiting for Chicago Pizza to show up.  Nightmares will fade.  The only nightmares you have thereafter are of her getting hurt, and those are far worse than the nightmares of yourself being set on fire.  You save everything and still keep it on a shelf on your bookcase.  

  But fate can only get you so far.  Fate can't put you together.  Everything happens for a reason up to a certain point.  What if you lost your chance?  What if fate isn't forgiving?  That could be the only girl you ever tell those secrets to.  It could be the only girl you ever want to share a bed with.  

  If fate isn't forgiving, will you be alone the rest of your life?

Will I always be as alone as I am now?

  Everyone says "don't worry, you can talk to me about it."  They might mean it, but sometimes you can't.

Especially when you want to talk about that person.

Fuck me this hurts more everyday.